Wow, men are fucked up, I thought as I watched the Kavanaugh-Ford hearing. And now he’s confirmed. Shame and anger were Kavanaugh’s weapons of discourse. Damn, he’s talking to us like we are children. “This is a national disgrace… you should be ashamed.” Blah, blah, blah…. And his Republican cronies continued the tirade of shame. Listening, I felt like a little […]
The voices are within… strong and yet depleting… you don’t want to show up… you don’t want to go to work… you don’t want to do anything… You have nothing to say…. Nothing matters… But you need to speak your voice… You have to create something for your blog… People are counting on you… those that seek a deeper inquiry… […]
“I have a great life. People I love. A home by the mountains. A full refrigerator.” A client speaks. I listen. “And then there’s this hunger for more… an itch, a longing for better connection at work, more free time to travel, more presence with myself, more time with my family, a new car, a flush retirement fund and… as […]
I’m an expert…. an expert at feeling stuck in my life. It seems I can’t just rest in a happy plateau. Always a hunger, a longing, a nagging pulling on me. Can you relate? Do you or have you ever felt stuck in any part of your life? Maybe it’s a job that sucks your soul. A marriage that feels compromised or lifeless. […]
My client Felicia is in her car. Her kids are driving her mad fighting in the back seat. It’s after school. She’s at her wit’s end, compounded by other stresses – a bungled work email, an IRS tax bill she forgot to pay, her husband’s complaint about something earlier that morning. She fears the soccer coach taking it out on […]
“…the dry throat that came from a love you remembered but had never fully wanted for yourself, until finally, after years making the long trek to get here it was as if your whole achievement had become nothing but thirst itself.” – David Whyte, “The Well” I sit for my daily morning practice; often it’s a form of meditation. Thoughts […]
Last week I wrote about the claustrophobic mindset that does not trust that everything will be okay. Trust that I’ll be ok. Trust that I’ll make my mortgage. Trust that I’ll succeed at work or in my marriage. In distrust, a rabbit hole emerges and anything to get out of it is in vain until something else happens. Something to […]
I wake up in the middle of the night. It just happens. Often. I’m forty-nine. Seems to be part of my life at this point. My thoughts get churning. Sometimes it’s first thing in the morning. How will I keep a roof over my head over these next few years? Will I ever see her again? Will my business be […]
Pink Floyd once sang, The lunatic is in my head. For me lately, it’s been The Creep is on my back. Say what? Yes, the creep is on my back. But rewind first… Dude breaks artery in his leg, spends five weeks on his back on a couch, and then BAM! one day gets so angry, nearly violent, he channels all […]
So I had an injury… a major injury… near death experience… near amputation experience… I broke an artery in my leg in a freak accident. Recovery has been brutal. 35 days now and barely walking on crutches. Days and days on end of sitting on my couch. Weeks of barely having enough energy to even answer an email. Sure, I’ve […]
